I Am Worth It

I Am Worth It

I have been aware of sexually transmitted infections and the risk of HIV, and I would get tested regularly, at least every 3 months. I always convinced myself that I know these people I’m having sex with. They are mostly friends or acquaintances, and we rarely engage...
What Do You Have To Lose?

What Do You Have To Lose?

I was diagnosed with HIV back in 1998. I was maybe 21 at the time, I think. I believe it was a Walgreens store. There was an outreach program, and somebody there was conducting HIV tests. I believe I found it by just walking by, so I walked in and got tested. What...
Nervous To Get Tested

Nervous To Get Tested

 I was really nervous to get tested. I’m not sure why. I guess there was a fear of finding out I contracted something. The unknown of what would happen next scared me. Who all would I have to tell? What does treatment look like? What if it was something that couldn’t...
Making Choices to Protect Myself

Making Choices to Protect Myself

 I lost a relative to HIV. I was a child when it happened, so I do not really think I understood what HIV was. I knew that they were sick, and I do not think they were taking their meds. It was devastating for me losing a loved one as a child, especially when it felt...
A One Stop Shop

A One Stop Shop

When I was younger, I would not go get tested because of the anxiety associated with a positive diagnosis or positive result. But as I have grown older, especially in my sobriety, I realized that whatever you may have, there are medical treatments for it. The way to...
A Life Beyond Our Wildest Dreams

A Life Beyond Our Wildest Dreams

My biggest fear in life is that I wouldn’t be loved. So, I put all my energy into acting to assume the role my perfect Jewish family wanted me to live. My name is Richard, but I honestly didn’t know who Richard was. When I was 6 years old, I wondered if I...